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Hey ihrse...

Ich habe mich dazu entschieden meinen Blog stillzulegen. Dafür gibt es ein paar Gründe, die nicht weiter wichtig sind und daher auch nicht erwähnt werden.

Ich wünsche euch allen alles Gute und viel Spaß mit euren Blogs... ich bleibe aufmerksame Leserin ;)

Liebe Grüße gehen heute mal ganz besonders an Abby raus... lange nicht gesprochen, Maus. Hoffe deinem Dad geht's wieder gut und dir natürlich auch.

Bye und bis hoffentlich bald! =)

Becci

~*~ I feel good enough... ~*~

Hey there!

Can you imagine, that I am still certified unfit for work?! I'm really tired of being home all day and the only thing that I do is running to doctors nearly every day. Okay, I visited an other doc today and he really raised my hope that I can be fit again... it just takes some weeks and a little bit work.

I just made an appointment for a magnetic resonance imaging and another appointment for physiotherapy... both next week. Physiotherapy on monday and magnetic resonance imaging on friday. And in some weeks I will be in mint condition... at least I hope so O_o

Let's get to some other issues.

Andrés friend Mike is living with us at the moment and it's getting really tight in here. I hope they'll find a flat soon, 'cause this is nothing for good.
I'm going to a visitation at 4 this afternoon. Maybe they can sign the contract in about a week... IF everything goes well. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

I'm sooooooo looking forward to this weekend... I'm finally going to see jcs house and what's even better... I'll meet some of my best friends for a whole weekend *yay* :)
André drops in tomorrow and I can't believe, but he has nearly four weeks off! That's really great =)

Ah... I nearly forgot to thank Dennis B. for helping me with my doctor-problem. You're so great, thank you soooo much! I insist on doing this DVD-night we talked about. It's going to be funny :D

And there is still this old issue... writing a book. I'm bubbleing over from ideas but I just can't force myself to just sit at the computer and write (not to mention that I can't sit for long 'cause of the pain). I know some of you (Dennis S. and André especially) are just waiting for me to begin this thing... help me getting it done! I don't know where to start! *g* André... we have to talk about that and then we're going to sit at two desks (face to face ^^) and... you know what :D I need you to do this... you know me and Mina better than anyone else =)

Chris... is still in Bulgaria and I'm already missing him :( I hear from him everyday, but it's still strange being without him all the time. I MISS YOU, BRO'!!! *huggies* Come back soooooooon!!!!

Okay, that's it for today... I cannot sit any longer.

Stay tuned!

Dee/Becci

It's been nearly four months since you finally conquered my heart but for god's sake... I know you had it before. I guess I never really thanked you for everything you did for me. Not just all the miles you traveled so that we could be together... I mean everything... you were there for me, when I needed someone to just listen. You wrapped your arms around me when I longed for affection. You waited patiently for me to finally realize what I feel. Thank you for everything... thank you for just being you.

This is how I feel about you and the song really touches my heart everytime I listen to it. Consider this just for you...



Under your spell again
I can't say no to you
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you torture me so sweetly
now I can't let go of this dream
I can't breathe but I feel...

... good enough
I feel good enough for you

Drink up sweet decadence
I can't say no to you
and I've completely lost myself and I don't mind
I can't say no to you

Shouldn't have let you conquer me completely
Now I can't let go of this dream
can't believe that I feel...

... good enough
I feel good enough
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall
pour real life down on me
cause I can't hold on to anything this good
enough
am I good enough
for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me
cause I can't say no...

Hey guys!


Jaja... lange her, ich weiß. Wenn ihr wüsstet, was seit dem letzen Eintrag alles passiert ist. Von Abteilungswechseln über Depriphasen bis hin zu den schönsten Tagen der letzten Jahre war alles dabei. Aber ehrlich gesagt hab ich nicht so die Lust das alles jetzt aufzurollen, darum hier nur ein paar Stichpunkte.

- André und Mike werden nach Bonn ziehen. Während Mike bald zur Maritimfamilie gehört *yaaaaaaay* (Welcome brother! :D), wird André meinen Eltern Konkurrenz machen und die Umsätze bei Obi in die Höhe treiben *muhaha* Jetzt nur noch ne passende Wohnung finden, gell? :)
- Das Auto von Anne gehört jetzt Chris, also die Zeit des zu Fuß einkaufens hat ein Ende =)
- Chris wird ENDLICH fest übernommen und bekommt damit auch mehr Gehalt! Glückwunsch noch mal, Bro'!!!
- jos ist endlich ihr eigener Boss
- Alex zieht nach Frankfurt, yaaaaaaaay! Willkommen in Deutschland :)
- jcs Freundin kommt aus Hamburg und heißt Nina (ja ich weiß, gewöhnungsbedürftig ^^) und seitdem sie zusammen sind muss man bei jc schon Monate im Voraus Termine planen :D Aber mal so nebenbei: Willkommen in der Familie, Nina :)... btw ich freue mich sooooo sehr auf morgen!!!
- Bald ist Friends-WE bei jc
- Pirates of the Caribbean 3 ist seit gestern im Kino.... MUSS ICH SEEEEHN!!!
- Dennis hat ein eigenes Blog... wurde ja auch Zeit *g* Hier der Link:
http://www.dennisstoye.com/ <-- schaut mal vorbei, es lohnt sich =) Wo ich schon mal bei dir bin... ich schulde dir noch nen Kaffee :)
- Ich habe das Bankettbüro hinter mir und bin jetzt im Verkauf, d.h. den ganzen lieben langen Tag mache ich Telemarketing... fühle mich wie eine von diesen Callcentertussen, die bei uns zu Hause immer anrufen und dir was andrehen wollen... ja so in der Art gehts mir im Moment auch.
- Das große Schulprojekt ist ENDLICH abgeschlossen. Wir haben unsere Mappe abgegeben und sollten eigentlich nächste Woche die Präsentation vorführen. Wahrscheinlich wird das wegen Sturmschäden an der Schule nichts... naja mal abwarten.
- Nach 6 oder 7 Wochen Schmerzen im Bein, bin ich Dienstag dann endlich mal zum Orthopäden gegangen. Hm... er war n bissi bös, dass ich erst so spät gekommen bin... Diagnose: Ischias eingeklemmt. Kann jetzt ne Weile dauern, bis das wieder wird. Ich muss so seltsame Übungen machen und gegen die Schmerzen gibts Tabletten. Mal sehen ob ich Dienstag wieder zur Arbeit kann. *hoff*
- Gestern habe ich mir endlich das Muttermahl am Steiß entfernen lassen. Die doofe Spritze hat mich wieder fertig gemacht, aber naja. Das Ding ist weg.
- Die Baskets haben gestern gegen Bamberg verloren, aber egal... die Statistik steht dieses Jahr eindeutig auf Bonns Seite... wir werden die nächsten 2 Spiele wieder für uns entscheiden. CHRIS!!! Dienstag wird UNSER TAG!!!! :D

Öhm... das waren einige Stichpunkte *hust*

Noch was... Chris... danke für den Tag gestern... sowas war seit langem mal wieder nötig.

Das wars erst mal für heute. Ich lieg zwar beim Schreiben, aber so ganz bequem isses nicht mit Schleppi aufm Bauch.

*winkas* Bis denne =)

Becci

Huhu...

Da es schon so spät ist und ich nicht wirklich Lust habe an diesem Eintrag ne Stunde zu schreiben, wird er heute in Deutsch geschrieben. Naja... ist mal wieder lange her, dass ich überhaupt was geschrieben habe und in der Zeit ist schon einiges passiert. Ich habe die Abteilung gewechselt und bin jetzt statt Piano Bar im Bankettbüro und muss immer hübsch angezogen zur Arbeit gehen. Mit hochhackigen Schuhen *ürx* - is ja gar nicht mein Ding, aber ich seh trotzdem gut darin aus. Am 13.03., also quasi übermorgen habe ich Zwischenprüfung und ich hatte mir so fest vorgenommen das freie Wochenende zu nutzen um zu lernen. Hm... das ging daneben. Ich hab zwar gelernt, aber nicht so intensiv, wie ich es mir vorgenommen hatte. Aber das wird schon klappen und wenn nicht ists auch kein Beinbruch, denn die Prüfung zählt ja nicht, also kann man quasi auch nicht durchfallen oder sowas. So... no harm done... yet^^

Tjaaa... was sonst noch?! Bankettbüro ist bisher noch nix besonderes. Ziemlich eintönig. Ist halt ein Büro und im Büro sitzen und Ablage machen, kopieren, faxen oder Storni, Absagen oder ähnliches umschreiben ist ja auch nicht wirklich die anspruchvollste Arbeit. Naja, wie dem auch sei... vielleicht wird das ja besser, wenn man mir mehr Verantwortung übergibt. Erst mal einleben... bin ja auch erst eine Woche dort.

Was ziemlich toll ist zur Zeit, ist das Wetter. Es wird wirklich Frühling. Heute habe ich aus dem Fenster auf die Wiese vor unserem Haus geschaut und dachte da liegen ganz viele weiße Papierschnipsel... als ich runter ging und sie vom Nahen sah, erkannte ich, dass es eigentlich kleine Gänseblümchen waren. Wie schööööön =)

Ja, was gibts sonst noch Neues? Nicht so viel, eigentlich. Nächste Woche kommt André her und wir machen uns ein schönes Wochenende (auch wenn ich mal wieder arbeiten muss :(). Geplant war eigentlich, dass ich nach Wolfsburg fahre und wir da was unternehmen, aber weil ichs wieder verpennt hab meine Cheffin zu fragen ob ich das WE komplett frei bekommen könnte, ist das auch in die Hose gegangen. Naja... kommt André halt, wieder mal =/, hier her. Wird sicher auch schön. Wir gehen wohl nach Köln schwimmen und ansonsten schauen wir mal, für was sonst noch Zeit ist :) Freu mich zumindest schon drauf *g*

Für Ende März ist ein THUMBthing in Bergisch Gladbach bei Beate geplant und ich hatte mir vorgenommen hinzufahren. Hoffentlich klappts auch, denn wir wollen uns THUMB-Spiele basteln. Das wird sicher lustig. Was THUMB sonst angeht... jc und jos sind endlich von ihren Vorwürfen befreit *yaaaaay* und das Geld von der Galileo für unsere geplagten Mitglieder ist auch gerade auf dem Weg zurück auf die richtigen Konten *doppelyaaaaay*. Es scheint sich ja doch einiges zum Guten zu wenden dieses Jahr. Gesundheitlich gehts uns allen zur Zeit nicht so sonderlich, bzw. unseren Lieben und es scheint auch irgendwie kein Ende zu nehmen. Ich drücke jedenfalls all unseren körperlich Angeschlagenen die Daumen, dass es bald besser ist.

Hm, inhaltlich nicht wirklich viel geschrieben heute, was? Vielleicht liegts am Deutsch. Bins nicht gewöhnt hier so zu schreiben und irgendwie ists auch nicht das selbe Feeling *g*
Ach ja, das Buch von dem ich letzten Eintrag geschrieben habe, ist noch immer in der Planungsphase. Ich habe noch keine Zeile geschrieben, aber ich bin schon ganz gespannt wie es wird, wenn ich erst mal anfange. Eins kann ich jetzt schon sagen: Die alten Terra Dea-Spieler, vorallem die Vamps und auch Gimli (huhuuu Udooooo :)) werden Spaß daran haben es zu lesen, sobald es erst mal fertig ist. Hach... Mina... *seufz* Die tollste imaginäre Frau auf Erden :D
Wer liest das Ding eigentlich beta? André kann nicht, weil der zu sehr involviert ist... hmm... irgendwer hier, der sich freiwillig meldet? ;)

Ahjo, wo wir gerade bei Terra Dea sind... Udooooo... ich finds so klasse, dass du so optimistisch bleiben kannst, obwohl du durch den Eignungstest erst mal durchgefallen bist. Ich bin mir sicher, dass es in 3 Jahren klappt. Du bist ja noch jung und hast noch sooooo viel Zeit. Also mach erst mal das, wovon du denkst, dass es dir helfen wird. Bin stolz auf dich =)

Btw... was ist eigentlich mit den restlichen UOlern? Habt ihr alle was anderes zu tun und keine Zeit mehr zu spielen oder so? Ich fänds soooooo toll, wenn wir TD wieder komplett aufleben lassen könnten. Ich weiß, der Versuch mit Lands of Lore ist irgendwie in die Hose gegangen, aber ich vermiss UO manchmal ganz doll... vorallem meine Vamps und Miiiinaaaa... ein mal süchtig, immer süchtig, was? :D

So, anderes Thema...

Denniiiis? Gehts dir besser? Ich hoffe es. Warst ja doch ganz schön lange krank. Und voll doof, jetzt sehen wir uns nie mehr auf Arbeit, weil die Zeiten mal gaaaaar nicht stimmen =/

Hab ich eigentlich schon mal erwähnt, dass ich Anke Engelke toll finde? Nein? Ok, ich find sie toll :D
Ohja und was ich total scheiße finde: WAS ZUR HÖLLE MACHEN DIE MACHER VON BSG MIT KARA?! Boooooah... ich bin sooo wütend......... (SPOILER, SPOILER, SPOILEEEER!!!!) ...... da bringen sie die einfach um und machen weiter als wär nix gewesen. *platzzzzzz*
Und Heroes.... hui huiiiiii.... alter Schwede, gehts da ab.... und warum gehts erst Ende April weiter?! Das ist doch Folter! O_O

Ich schreib heute ganz schön viel Mist, aber wahrscheinlich liegts nur daran, dass ich so nervös bin wegen der Prüfung. Oh man... ich hab soooo ein schlechtes Gewissen, weil ich mich nicht so vorbereitet habe, wie ich es hätte tun sollen *grml*

Naja.... für heute ist Schluss und ich werd jetzt gleich mal ins Bett gehen. Alsooo... please ignore my Kaudawelsch und habt Nachsicht.

Babaaaaaa

Dee/Becci

Hey you out there!

Life is all about choices and I choose not to be angry and sad anymore... instead I'm going to think positive even if the worst month of the year is coming up right now. February is going to be hell. I will have to work very often because there will be so many events the next weeks and the bar is still not my favorite section =/. But hey... I said I choose to think positive, so I will. My trainee-colleague Sarah is working at the bar either and she's so down right now, just like me. The working times from about 5 or 6pm till 4, 5 or 6am are just getting us down, that's why we suffer together and call each other almost every day to push our moods up again. I know she's at work right now and I'm going to call her tomorrow just to make sure she's alright.

Ok... something else now... work is such a horrible issue. I really have no news to tell because I'm doing nothing beside working. But never the less there are some news :P

First: My intermediate examination is knocking at the door. 13th March... cross your fingers. I'm scared to hell by now! Btw... I still have some record books to write *gapes*

Second: I choose (ah again the word ;) ) to write a book. I mean... I love to write and role-playing-games are one of my passions so I also like to create and develop characters. So why not commit my creative thoughts to paper? My only problem is that I'm always getting tired of cook up a storyline to its end. I mean... there is a bit of a story in my head but I want it just to get out very fast so I won't forget it... but mostly my writing suffers when I'm doing it like this. I try to work on my patience so I can write a story to its end. André is helping me with that because he's the one who has this bright ideas how to keep a story interesting even if there is a little down where we just describe the background of everything which CAN be very boring but he's good at creating so I trust him on this one. So André is creating a storyline while I'm concentrating on my very best character... Mina. She's like my alter ego. She's just like me in so many ways... and in some ways she's like I wanted me to be. When I'm writing out of her sight I feel like in a different time and place... I feel like a different and maybe better person even if Mina is far from being a good person. She's so strong, arrogant, mysterious, intellegent, vulnerable and breakable at the same time and she has this dark side inside of her which is really tearing her apart. She wishes not to be the girl she is or to be more specific the girl she was made to be. Oh yes... she's just like me in so many ways. Maybe this is the reason why I love to write about her.

Uh... I'm getting out of line here, so let's go on with something else *g*

Third: Battlestar and Heroes... wohohoooo.... my absolute fav TV shows right now. The storylines, the characters... it's always a little bit of a history when I'm watching one of the shows. They are so intense. I never can wait for the next episode to air even if I have problems to accommodate my job and the shows sometimes. My freetime is very spare at the moment.

Ah yeah right there is one more thing. My computer is... I don't know... the pc itself is fine but the internet doesn't work on it and I don't know how to repair this because I tried everything but nothing would work for long. So I have to use the notebook I got from Dennis, a colleague from the hotel. I only should test it a bit but it seems that I have to use it for a longer time now. It's a bit slowly sometimes but it works for the net, so I don't complain. Thanks again Dennis :) Maybe i'll buy it but I won't decide now :D

Soooo.... it's not in the middle of the night but it's late anyway and because I have to work not until 5pm tomorrow I think I will watch "Nightmare before Christimas" one more time. Jack and Zero *uhuuuu*.... this movie is so insane but it's also good... I really love it.

So people... "see" you...

Dee/Becci or whatever you want to call me....

... so 2007, huh?!

I think it's funny... I started 2006 at work and I finished 2006 at work... AND I started 2007 at work... really sad.

Hm... what I wanted to say: I hope you had a nice christmas and a wonderful start in the new year.
Everyone did these reviews of the last year and I think I could have made one, too, but first of all... in english? No thanks... I would sit more than a day writing... and second... the last year was frakkin' bullshit so I try to forget it and not to think about it again.

So what's for the new year? Hm... I hope 2007 is going to be our year... it should be one of the best because my friends and I will fly to Florida in October. Chris and I are planning on getting a "new" car again... but this is too far away to speak about. I'm going to have my intermediate testing in March and I have to get ready for that very soon. What else...? Ah... there will be some Thumbthings this year, but in fact I have to save money for Florida, so I think I can't attend all of them. We'll see. What 2007 brings for sure is: new hope. The last year was so full of bad times and there were so few really good moments, so that the new year IS going to be better than the last... at least I hope so.

Did I mention that I left the front-desk behind and said hello to the Piano Bar? I'm not sure if this is a section for me and if this is a work where I feel really good. I have to figure this out during the next two months.

This entry isn't going to be so long but in the end I want to say "Thank you" to all of my friends who supported me and never gave up on me the last year. So thank you... you know who you are.
And thanks to Beate, André, Alex, jos, jc and Chris for spending the new year's eve with me at work in the Maritim. I had fun and I was so glad to see some of my friends... otherwise I would have been a little lonely.

Ok... enough for now... I feel a bit sick at the moment and I try not to think about the next months and be optimistic but this is really hard. I'm a bit down right now. But it's not only because of the work... I sometimes wish I would have someone to lean against... just for a moment... just a minute. But there is no one out there and if I think there are feelings for someone this person destroys everything with just one fucking word, one sms or with a comment about some other girl. Sometimes this loneliness is so hard and I feel like it's breaking me and the worst is that even the best friends can't do something about it. Yeah, of cause they can be there for me but it's not the same if my heart is longing for love so hard. And then there are always these confusing feelings for someone I shouldn't have feelings for... I tell myself not to think about it... that it wouldn't work anyway and most of the time it helps but sometimes... I don't know. Maybe it's just the bad weather outside which infected my thoughts or something. Ah... just forget about it.

Bye.

I'm soooo sorry..... I know I promised one more entry in november but I kinda lost it *sigh*.

Ok... so much happend the last four weeks. Chris and I went to the Evanescenceconcert which was so great. Amy, Terry, Rocky and John rocked so hard! I didn't see Tim but I just saw him at the photos so he was there O_o... ah... doesn't matter anyway... main thing is: I finally saw Ame Lee *hach*. The setlist this evening was like that:

1. Sweet Sacrifice (a really really cool song live!)
2. Weight of the World (my ears almost flew away... heavy bass! :D)
3. Going Under (my all-time-fav!)
4. The Only One (THIS absolutely rocked! The bass was huge and Chris and I rocked so hard! *gg*)
5. Haunted (I can't remember *cough*)
6. Whisper (same here O_o)
7. Lithium (Wow... this was great. Amy at the piano, blue, red and purple lights all around her...)
8. Good Enough (same here... both songs almost made me cry)
9. Call Me When You're Sober (wohoooo what a song! Amy just jumped around and rocked!)
10. Imaginary (Wonderful as always and my voice left me ^^)
11. Bring Me To Life (this was great, too... the crowed knew every word...)
12. Lacrymosa (I kinda lost this song in my head...)

Addition:
13. My Immortal (woar... everybody knew the words and sang along... Amy sometimes stopped singing and let us sing the chorus... gooseflesh and now I really cried!)
14. All That I'm Living For (One of the greatest songs! And my voice was gone! :D)


It was a short concert, but nevertheless really really great and Amys T-Shirt was soooo cool... would like to have the same one :D. Too bad she ran off the stage so quickly at the end. Chris and I bought two tourshirts at the fanstore afterwards and I bought a poster which snuggles - yes snuggle!!! :P - at my roomdoor right now. I'm so happy that they promised to be back next year and I definately will be there :)
We went to the Piano Bar at the hotel after the concert and had some cocktails but we both were really tired and I left my voice in the concert hall so this night was not the partynight we both expected.

Just two days at home and back on the road heading for jos' which was really cool 'cause we made cookies and something I don't really have a word for but it tasted good :D And jos' leg was also better so that we made a short trip to Frankfurtcity.

Hm... okay and now I'm back at the hotel.. since three weeks to be specific. Back to work and waiting for the next vacation to begin... which is way to far away *gg* I'll change the section in January. Reception against Piano Bar... I don't know if I really want to work at the bar but this time it's only two months and after that I'll change to the Eventbureau and after that accounting department. Before I change to the events I have to get some new clothes which I can wear in a bureau... will be expensive, I guess. Ah anyway... new clothes are never wrong :D

Next weekend (one weekend before Christmas) my friends and I will meet in Nürnberg and have a nice time at the Christmas Market. Looking forward to that although it's going to be expensive, but what's even worse... I don't have ANY christmaspresents yet! So I'm forced to find something next week or at the weekend in Nürnberg. I'm so messed-up and without ideas for good presents *sigh*.

Anyway... time's gone fast and the day is nearly over (gosh, where went all the time?!) and I'm planning to relax this evening 'cause the weekend and the next week will be very exhausting. So guys... see you and thanks for reading =)

Ah... P.S.: Kathyyyschatz-Abbymauuuus!!!!! I'm soooo sorry, that we didn't meet! I was so looking forward to finally see you. But hey... Aachen isn't at the end of the world, right? :D So next time - next try =)

Soooo this is it for now.... bye everyone! =)

Becci/Dee

You won't believe it, but I'm on vacaaaaation!!!!! For two hole weeks I don't have to get up early or work 'til midnight... noooo I just get up whenever I want and go to bed whenever I want. Yaaaay! *happy happy*

Ok, you people still keep asking me why I write my blog in english. It's simple. Do you use your english knowledge in you everyday life? No? I do. I HAVE to use my english because I'm working in the hotel business and we also have guests from other countries than just from germany. And writing my blog is like training my knowledge because I don't go to school anymore... just this vocational school but you don't really learn english there *rolling eyes*. Now you know, people, so stop asking me ;)

So what's the plan for my vacation?! First of all: sleeping, sleeping, loads of food, more chocolate, shopping for chritz' birthday and for christmas (yeah... it's time again *snuffle*)
In more words:
I'll force myself to get out and find some presents for everyone 'til friday. I also have to get a present for our "THUMB Secret Santa"... it's gonna be fun fun fun =)

On friday and saturday I have to go to school but on saturday I'll leave school before it's out because chritz and I will go to cologne and to the Maritim there to check-in early. The Evanescence-concert is in the evening, so we have more time left to go shopping and to the spa :D And theeeeen there's concert-time and I'll see Amy Lee and her guys on stage! I'm soooo looking forward to that, yay yay yay!!! *jumps*
We'll stay there 'til sundaynoon.
We're also planning to visit jos the following week. It will be so much fun 'cause jc, chritz, jos and I are planning to bake some cookies and going ice skating... aaaaaah as always... it's going to be fun! And I'm so exited =)

Ah yeah... I bought a new coat last week and André helped me by finding one. It's a nice one... not what I wanted and imagined, but nice. So thanks André for coming with me.

I'm listening to Evanescence - Breath no more for a hundred times now and it's making me sort of uncomfortable because there's something I have to say:

André... I have to apologize to you. I sometimes use you as punching ball when I'm frustrated and that's just so wrong. I know that and I want to apologize for the things I say to you when I have bad days. I'm sorry. I know some of the words really hurt you. I just sit there... angry, full of rage and most of all vulnerable. I just want to feel alive and powerfull again and then there's you who really cares about me and it's just so easy to feel powerfull when I hurt you. That's so not fair, I know that, but I don't know why it's always you who has to suffer. I am sorry. I hope you'll forgive me one more time. =/

And for the rest of you:
Considering my vacation I'm very sure that this won't be my last entry in november ;)
I'm looking forward to that and hope that someone actually reads this :D

So thanks for 'listening' ;)

Becci

Hey folks!

Uhm... I knoooow... it's been nearly a month since I posted... shame on me! But I had sooo much work and if I had a day off, I was out to celebrate this wonderful lazy day with my friends. But todaaay is the day for a update :D.

Okay... the weekend with André was soooooo awesome... we had sooooo much fun. We were swimming and in the solarium... such a relaxing day =) We slept till noon, André cooked for me ;) and we were shopping... ah... we just did so many things... I can't count :D So thank you so much, André. The weekend with you was so relaxed... I kinda needed it! And thanks for being there for me, whenever I need you =)

The last two weeks were full of work. I made overtimes nearly every day and at the end of the day I just fell into my bed and was not able to stand up before morning *g*.
And not to forget the weather here in good old germany... the leaves are falling and it's getting colder every day... so, yes... the summer's officially over and fall's coming very fast. I love how the landscape looks when the seasons change but I just don't like when it's getting colder. But hey... in 6 months the spring is coming again :D *thinking positive*.

Aaaaaah there are more things... beautiful things I've to tell ya :D BATTLESTAAAAAAAAAAR!!!!!!!!! FINALLY! I saw 3 new episodes of Battlestar Galactica and they really rocked! The storyline is so amazing... so very different, but really good. I think this season will be one of the best seasons of a show I've ever seen :D - besides Angels season 4 ;). The new seasons of LOST and Desperate Housewives also started and I'm looking forward to watch season 2 of Supernatural next. As you can see... my week is full of work and shows... I'm addicted :D But that's ok ^^

And one more news for today... EVANESCENCE!!!!!!! I'm going to attend the concert in Cologne on 18th Nov. with my very best friend chriiiitz.... THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH, honey! You made this possible and I will never forget!
The best thing is... we won't go home after the concert. We'll stay at the Maritim Hotel Cologne before the concert (WELLNESS, yaaaaay ^^) and I'm looking forward to have some nice drinks (espacially cocktails ;)) with chritz in the bar afterwards... this weekend is going to be one of the best this year.

I spent the last weekend with my family and celebrated my grandma's 64th birthday. It was fun and she was so happy to see me :) My mom made lunch for me... hach... I'm lucky I've such a nice family and wonderful friends. Did I mention how incredible my friends are? No? Okay... I just wanted you to know that no one is as lucky as I am 'cause I've people by my side who really care about me and the things I do. I wanna thank you jc, jos, chritz and André... you're all I have and all I need... and I know you won't break my heart.

The song of the day is Sick Puppies – All the same... it's for the people I love and I won't forget.

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly

I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do

I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long as you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden

And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am

I don't mind...
I don't care...
As long as you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
I's all the same

In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same

Go ahead say it you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same